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To the Chinese American Community: 

My name is Eileen Huang, and I am a junior at Yale University studying English. I was asked to write a reflection, maybe even a poem, on Chinese American history after watching Asian Americans, the new documentary on PBS. However, I find it hard to write poems at a time like this. I refuse to focus on our history, our stories, and our people without acknowledging the challenges, pain, and trauma experienced by marginalized people—ourselves included—even today. In light of protests in Minnesota, which were sparked by the murder of George Floyd at the hands of racist White and Asian police officers, I specifically want to address the rampant anti-Blackness in the Asian American community that, if unchecked, can bring violence to us all. 

We Asian Americans have long perpetuated anti-Black statements and stereotypes. I grew up hearing relatives, family friends, and even my parents make subtle, even explicitly racist comments about the Black community: They grow up in bad neighborhoods. They cause so much crime. I would rather you not be friends with Black people. I would rather you not be involved in Black activism. 

The message was clear: We are the model minority—doctors, lawyers, quiet and obedient overachievers. We have little to do with other people of color; we will even side with White Americans to degrade them. The Asian Americans around me, myself included, were reluctant—and sometimes even refused—to participate in conversations on the violent racism faced by Black Americans—even when they were hunted by White supremacists, even when they were mercilessly shot in their own neighborhoods, even when they were murdered in broad daylight, even when their children were slaughtered for carrying toy guns or stealing gum, even when their grieving mothers appeared on television, begging and crying for justice. Even when anti-Blackness is so closely aligned to our own oppression under structural racism. 

We Asian Americans like to think of ourselves as exempt from racism. After all, many of us live in affluent neighborhoods, send our children to selective universities, and work comfortable, professional jobs. As the poet Cathy Park Hong writes, we believe that we are “next in line … to disappear,” to gain the privileges that White people have, to be freed from all the burdens that come with existing in a body of color. 

However, our survival in this country has always been conditional. When Chinese laborers came in the 1800s, they were lynched and barred from political and social participation by the Chinese Exclusion Act—the only federal law in American history to explicitly target a racial group. When early Asian immigrants, such as Bhagat Singh Thind, attempted to apply for citizenship, all Asian Americans were denied the right to legal personhood—which was only granted to “free white persons“—until 1965. When Pearl Harbor was bombed, Japanese Americans were rounded up, tortured, and detained in concentration camps. When the Cold War reached its peak, Chinese Americans suspected of being Communists were terrorized by federal agents. Families lost their jobs, businesses, and livelihoods. When COVID-19 hit the US, Asian Americans were assaulted, spat on, and harassed. We were accused of being “virus carriers”; I was recently called a “bat-eater.” We are made to feel like we have excelled in this country until we are reminded that we cannot get too comfortable—that we will never truly belong. 

Here’s a story of not belonging: On June 19, 1982, as Detroit’s auto industry was deteriorating from Japanese competition, Vincent Chin, a 27-year-old Chinese American, entered a bar to celebrate his upcoming wedding. Ronald Ebens, a laid-off White autoworker, and his stepson, Michael Nitz, were there as well. They followed Chin as he left the bar and cornered him in a McDonald’s parking lot, where they proceeded to bludgeon him with a metal baseball bat until his head cracked open. “It’s because of you motherf––ers that we are out of work,” they had said to Chin. Later, as news of the murder got out, Chinese Americans were outraged, calling for Ebens and Nitz’s conviction. Chin’s killers were only charged for second-degree murder, receiving only charges of $3,000—and no jail time. “These weren’t the kind of men you send to jail,” County Judge Charles Kaufman said. Then who is? 

Watching Asian Americans, I was haunted by the video clips of Chin’s mother, Lily. She is a small Chinese woman who looks like my grandmother, or my mother, or an aunt. Her face crumples in front of the cameras; she pleads and cries, in a voice almost animal-like, “I want justice for my son.” Yet, in all of Lily’s footage, she is surrounded by Black civil rights activists, such as Jesse Jackson. They guard her from news reporters that try to film her grief. Later, they march in the streets with Chinese American activists, holding signs calling for an end to racist violence. 

Though we cannot compare the challenges faced by Asian Americans to the far more violent atrocities suffered by Black Americans, we owe everything to them. It is because of the work of Black Americans—who spearheaded the civil rights movement—that Asian Americans are no longer called “Orientals” or “Chinamen.” It is because of Black Americans, who called for an end to racist housing policies, that we are even allowed to live in the same neighborhoods as White people. It is because of Black Americans, who pushed back against racist naturalization laws, that Asian Americans have gained official citizenship and are officially recognized under the law. It is because of Black activism that stories like Vincent Chin’s are even remembered. We did not gain the freedom to become comfortable “model minorities” by virtue of being better or hard-working, but from years of struggle and support from other marginalized communities. 

On May 25, 2020, George Floyd, a Black man, was accused of using a counterfeit 20-dollar bill at a deli in Minneapolis. In response, Derek Chauvin, a White police officer, tackled Floyd and knelt on his neck for seven minutes. In videos that will later circulate online, for three minutes, in a pool of his own blood, Floyd is seen pleading for his life, stating that he can no longer breathe. Instead, Chauvin continues to kneel. And kneel. Meanwhile, in the background, Tou Thao, an Asian American police officer, is seen standing by the murder, merely watching. And watching. And saying nothing as Floyd slowly stops struggling. 

I see this same kind of silence from Asian Americans around me. I am especially disappointed in the Chinese American community, whose silence on the murder of Black Americans has been deafening. While so many activists of color are banding together to support protesters in Minneapolis, so many Chinese Americans have chosen to “stay out” of this disobedience. The same Chinese Americans who spoke out so vocally on anti-Asian racism from COVID-19 are suspiciously quiet when it comes to Floyd’s murder (as well as Ahmaud Arbery, Breonna Taylor, Tamir Rice, Sandra Bland, Trayvon Martin, Michael Brown, Freddie Gray and countless other Black Americans who were killed merely for existing). I do not see us sharing sympathy for Black mothers who appear on television, begging, like Lily Chin, to see justice for their sons. I do not see us marching with Black protesters. I do not see us donating to Black-led organizations. 

I do not see our outrage as White murderers, such as Vincent Chin’s killers, receive no jail time for killing innocent Black Americans. I do not see us extending any solidarity toward the Black protesters who have been sprayed with tear gas and rubber bullets—only a couple weeks after White COVID-19 “protesters,” armed with AR-15s, were barely even touched by policemen. Instead, I see us calling them “thugs,” “rioters,” “looters”—the same epithets that White Americans once called us. I see us, such as members of my own family, merely laughing off President Trump’s tweet about sending the National Guard to Minnesota, as if it were a joke and not a deadly threat.  

I imagine where we would be if Black Americans did not participate in Asian American activism. We would still be called Orientals. We would live in even more segregated neighborhoods and attend even more segregated schools. We would not be allowed to attend these elite colleges, advance in our comfortable careers. We would be illegal aliens. We—and everyone else—would not remember stories like Vincent Chin’s. 

I urge all Chinese Americans to watch media such as Asian Americans, to seriously reflect not only on our own history, but also on our shared history with other minorities—how our liberation is intertwined with liberation for Black Americans, Native Americans, Latinx Americans, and more. We are not exempt from history. What has happened to George Floyd has happened to Chinese miners in the 1800s and Vincent Chin, and will continue to happen to us and all minorities unless we let go of our silence, which has never protected us, and never will. 

Our history is not only a lineage of obedient doctors, lawyers, and engineers. It is also a history of disrupters, activists, fighters, and, above all, survivors. I think often of Yuri Kochiyama, a Japanese American survivor of internment camps who later became a prominent civil rights activist, and who developed close relationships with Black activists, such as Malcolm X. “We are all part of one another,” she once said.

I urge you all to donate to the activist organizations listed below. I refuse to call for the racial justice of our own community at the expense of others. Justice that degrades or subordinates other minorities is not justice at all. At a time when many privileged minorities are siding with White supremacy—which has terrorized all of our communities for centuries—I want to ask: Whose side are you on?

 

Eileen Huang studies English at Yale University. You can find her on Twitter @bobacommie and Instagram @eileenxhuang

 

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All of those who have signed below have pledged to address/end anti-Blackness in our Asian American communities by committing to the following actions:


  • Donating to Black-led organizations and Black Lives Matter activists in MN

  • Protesting (either in person or on social media) against White supremacy and anti-Blackness

  • Engaging in uncomfortable/difficult conversations with Asian Americans/non-Black people on anti-Blackness in our own communities

  • Committing to educating yourself on anti-racist theories, actions, and histories that can help dismantle White supremacy


Click the following link of Google Form to sign your name if you are with us: [name, opt. affiliation]

   https://bit.ly/3djTtuE

Eileen Huang, Yale University

Isabelle Rhee, Yale University

Biman Xie, Yale University

Saket Malholtra, Yale University

Lauren Lee, Yale University

Adrian Kyle Venzon, Yale University

Michael Chen, Yale University

Lillian Hua, Yale University

Dora Guo, Yale University

Kevin Quach, Yale University

Pia Gorme, Yale University

Alex Chen, Yale University

Emily Xu, Yale University

Avik Sarkar, Yale University

Evelyn Huilin Wu, Yale University

Angelreana Choi, Yale University

Cindy Kuang, Yale University

Karina Xie, Yale University

Tulsi Patel, Yale University

Kayley Estoesta, Yale University

Renee Chen, Wellesley College

Sara Thakur, Yale University

Eui Young Kim, Yale University

FUNDS AND COMMUNITY EFFORTS TO DONATE TO:

Compiled by the Asian American Students Alliance at Yale. 

FAMILY FUNDS:

I Run With Maud

George Floyd Memorial Fund

BAIL FUNDS:

Atlanta Solidarity Fund

Brooklyn Bail Fund

Chicago Community Bond Fund

Columbus Freedom Fund

Los Angeles - People’s City Council Freedom Fund

Louisville Community Bail Fund

Philadelphia Community Bail Fund

People’s Breakfast Oakland

Richmond Community Bail Fund

COLLECTIVES, MUTUAL AID FUNDS, AND OTHER GRASSROOTS ORGANIZATIONS:

Black Lives Matter

Black Visions Collective

Black Owned Business GoFundMe Thread

Lake Street Council

Minnesota Youth Collective

North Star Health Collective

Reclaim the Block

Women for Political Change Front Lines Fund and Mutual Aid Fund

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sujuan

I applauded your courage to expose your own views of being racism learned from your parents and relatives and likely yourself. Please stop over generalized your bigotry view to all chinese community. Chinese American have been part of american fabrics for centuries. They do not owe anyone! please stop using guilty trip to blanket all chinese community! The death of George Floyd is a huge manmade tragedy that deserves justice and change in the justice system. Police brutality has to be condemned and held accountable on every case! However, these facts do not give you a higher moral ground to belittle chinese community, which is an another type of racism- self imposter syndrome to project your own inadequacy and poor self acceptance to your heritage. You can do whatever you want to advance your moral superiority and equality in this fractured world. please do not blame and over generalized your views to other chinese Americans. Thank you so much!
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Alllivematters

You can only represent yourself not “ WE Asian American”. I feel sorry that you grow up in an environment that your family , friends and your parents have the anti- black American statements and I think you should talk to your parents why they think that way. Most of Asians treat people equally no matter what color, please stop representing “ OUR Asian Americans”
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LM

Amy Lin, get to the point. Stop attacking others because they are expressing genuine anger toward bigotry and stigma by a previleged Asian young woman toward her loving parents and supporting community. BTW, her previlege was derived from the hardworking and selfishless support from her parents, not something she has earned by herself and can freely squander. The author is not in a position of and should not under any circumstances be pointing her fingers at the broad Asian American community as racists purely based on her limited interactions with her parents and their friends. If she insists on doing it, she is clearly a racist and she is a divider of the community. Being previleged is not an excuse to show how justified you are to point fingers at your parents and Asian Amierican community. Being previleged is something you should be extremely grateful to your parents and their sacrifice. You should feel lucky to be raised by such parents and grow up in such a community. You should use your previleged environment and attendance at Yale to amend the distrust of different races, but not to further divide and plant distrust among them. I personally feel the author is a person with extreme ideologies that will not make the situations better but further pushing people into confrontation.
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Mr L

Hello Eileen, I am a Chinese immigrant living in Canada but happened to see your post in the Google result by accident. Being in Canada I guess our living environments can be different in many ways. But I feel like sharing my experience and prospective to you, and other Chinese people as well. I started off as an international student 10 years ago. Maybe as a fob :P - is that what some Asian Americans call the foreign students who do not assimilate well into western society? Also what makes me a bit different from my fellow Chinese students is my sexuality - I am gay. Also, despite the fact that parents are wealthy, I actually come from a broken family – I may elaborate that later. I moved into dorm and made some friends from different backgrounds. Unlike some other Chinese students I did not have prejudice at all at the beginning. Like for once, I was eating lunch with my humanities Chinese classmate, when the resident assistant, who is an African guy, walked by. I said hi to him and my classmate, who I actually did not like for some reason, said “How come you have a black friend?” You may think this totally proves your point. But hell no, I got more things to share. The second month since I was in Canada, my friend, who was paying someone a visit near the school at around 2 pm on a Saturday, got robbed. The mugger threatened him with a knife and took his phone. I was actually very fearful. I did hear about safety issues before I came to this school but did not take it seriously. Now it really happened around me. I feared the next victim would be me. Later, I read on the school bulletin that a student’s laptop was stolen in the library; student tried to catch the thief; however, the thief pulled out a knife at him and he had to see his laptop gone. And what race do you think they are? I swear I did not have any prejudice before then. But I found myself unable to look at black Canadian students like before. Please pardon my fear. I was not brought up in a multicultural environment like Asian Americans are. And I never heard of classmates getting robbed in China (FYI it was not the safest city in China and there had been some flashers around my senior high school tho. I felt very sorry for the girls. But later in life they seemed to be able to joke about it…? ) Now some may think “Ha, this guy turned into a racist”. But no, after I took up the courage to talk to some black students, I realized my fear was pointless. The students were just as cool as me. I looked in the same way at everyone again. Semester was over but I continued summer school. So did the resident assistant which I mentioned below. He was totally a good guy and I liked him! We welcomed a lot of international students into our dorm, most of whom are Chinese. That kind of matched the stereotype eh :P I did not have much connection with them. Till one day, one of a girls, cried to me, saying that her friend was robbed of her iPhone, in the school food court. And one girl in a group I had a buffet with, told me she was robbed when waiting for a bus (on campus). She comforted us by saying “don’t worry! As long as you give your cash to the mugger, you’ll be fine) This school is notorious for security. Receiving safety bulletin about someone getting dinged has become a routine for many of us. Okay, maybe I am exaggerating. I did know that sometimes the suspect race was showing as Asian, white or latino. Yes, everyone can be a criminal right..? That is not much to say about my schooling here after this, as it would deviate. I did not have a good time there anyway – poor administration on top of bad security but that’s a long story. I graduated and got a job. It did take me quite a while as I was not very well prepared for job hunt at the time of graduation etc. I tutored some students before my job. One kid from Shengzhen was a total headache - a spoiled brat. He liked to go off tangents during tutoring. Once he said something about the Chinese village he lived in before he moved to Shengzhen and spat out some derogatory terms of the villagers. I tried to correct him but he would not listen. Later some black girls came by where we tutored and he started some racist crap against them again, like “I don’t like them. They are disgusting”. I got very angry as his racism was outrageous. I was like “hey you can’t say things like that. They are people just us. You don’t even know them. How can you say they are disgusting?? They don’t need your likes” blah blah I thought I would always be a racism fighter, not as radically as some of you are but can serve as a little bridge between people. I spoke for the Persian customer who the Chinese supermarket staff the Chinese staff ignored etc. But I was wrong. I got addicted to Caribbean style BBQ chicken. I made a local boyfriend. So I bugged my boyfriend to take me to somewhere to eat that. We came to this resto in a neighbourhood where it’s usually located. The staff was kind of cold. I did not take it seriously but when we was eating, another guy walked in and the staff perked up right away. I did not feel too comfortable but forgot about it. … till I ordered at a Caribbean restaurant. It was in a very affluent neighbourhood and their food was so good. I ate there so many times. But that day, the guy working them greeted me with ‘yes’. Fine, rude, but whatever. I continued to the checkout, the cashier was really nice to the guy before us. I thought she was a nice lady. A nice person would bright up your day right? To my shock, her smile was immediately gone when she saw me. I don’t know how I offended her. I tried to smile to her but she remained apathetic. When I walked out of the store with my food, I realized my race could very likely be a factor, so was the last incident that happened to me and my boyfriend. I was very upset. Please tell me another possible cause. I did not go back to these stores. I do not want to see their eyes again. Yet I did post reviews, describing my experience online. I know I need to speak for myself. Since then, I wasn’t so interested in racism and such. I know it totally exists tho so I started paying more attention to politics and all. After all I would become a citizen one day. Politics would concern me. I noticed that on the political spectrum, a lot of people are really insensitive. I once worked at a big firm. The younger workers there, regardless of race, could be so radical. They made everything about race and called everyone and everything racist. It was at the tip of their mouth. It so turned me off and invalidated or weakened whatever they said to me. I noticed also, it is always white vs black, with Asian, Indian and other races stuck in between. The leftist throw “racist”, “white privilege” and “bigotry” without any hesitation. I still make friends with every single one person around me, as long as they are good person. I date people regardless of their race. I smile to everyone who is friendly to me. I don’t ask for trouble. But I know, a part of me, is really disgusted by most of the radical views on racism. I don’t agree with some of the biases some immigrants have, Chinese or not. Even once a South Asian uber driver, who was very nice to me, said he would not let his daughter marry black or muslim guys. Yes sounds wrong too. I was stunned myself (shrug) he did told me his unpleasant experience with them. I was thinking “hey shouldn’t your daughter pick who she likes??”  But I am also indignant about this double standard of the mainstream leftists when it comes to racism and police issues. Some races can be racist towards other races and play victim when it is not in the least necessary. This is just not right. For instance, one black girl in my current university, when people were accusing one white student’s racist behaviour towards black students, she got upset even though everyone was with her. She said something like “you just want racism to go away. You don’t care about black liberation or such”. I was like “what????” Also, since when being white is a sin? Asian are most times out of the picture but I see you try to put us in the frame, which actually confuses me. You see Asian community as privileged but what about the sweat they perspire for hard work? What happens when Asian was discriminated against and people were fighting for it? Maybe it is neglected, ignored, or swept under the carpet by some people but as a Chinese, I would not forget it. I appreciate the opportunities Canada gave me, and I admit that Canada and the US protected the ‘disadvantaged ones’ better. I am a LGBT member, and I suffer from anxiety/depression and am on prescriptions. I receive extra benefit from the government so I am really grateful of that. I would love to help those who are marginalized and such. I appreciate the people who have fought for our rights But I don’t tolerate arbitrary violence, double standard, sensationalization or dramatization! That’s what the protesters are currently doing around the North America and they are hurting innocent individuals. The opportunists are doing whatever they want to damage the city. There are bad cops which I totally agree but, overall they keep order in our society. I cannot imagine a society without law and order. Like, why could some of the lefists generalize the police, or whatever you do to your Chinese community? There is some bad apples in the tree but that does not mean all apples are bad. Selectively picking your target is just wrong. I send my wishes to my black friends in Canada and the US. But I want violence to end too. Same with many of my black friends. I hope you don’t find my writing unbearable or too long. I just hope to get my point across, despite the fact that English isn’t my native language. I try to provide as many true events as I can, as I don’t want to be ‘subjective’. I will leave it to you, and any other readers to judge. All the best with your future. And stay safe during the Covid. Regards, Mr L
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Jing Zhou

Generalization is actually doing the opposite. Keep emphasizing stereotypes of color just push the society to the extreme, and more hatred. Defend the justice to the most should be the right way.
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Frank Wang

Instead of protesting on the street and destroying properties and small business, we should knock on the doors of elected officials to demand changes. The politicians get our black cousins’ votes, and then do nothing to improve their lives. This is the real systematic problem. If the politicians really care about our black cousins, they would have enacted laws and have made systematic change of law enforcement that will treat our black cousins and us as one of them. It is easy to show up on the street but it will take a lot of collective efforts to hold elected officials responsible and make system change. We must vote and hold our elected officials accountable.

松平 聖也

Please listen to many others disagreements. Your views are very flawed and very prideful. Your parents racist sentiments should not be used to generalise the entire Asian American or Chinese American community. Do you know the number of tragedies and difficulties and bullying Chinese immigrants who are trying to make a living are subject to?? Now maybe not, because I know you are born into privilege. What about the others who try to fight their way to top, and succeed doing so after so many setbacks from the black community? I am a supporter of BLM, because w/o them, we cannot fight for All Lives Matter. Good intention, but you are a very close minded individual.

松平 聖也

You make a good point!!
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Jiang Chang

Your parents would regret to raise a daughter like you had you guys lived at the time of the Chinese Cultural Revolution because I am pretty sure you would be one of those Red Guards who betrayed their parents and sent their parents to jail.
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honestgold

As a Chinese American, I feel very grateful to be in this country and the system is very just relative to other countries. While you are screaming about one man's injustice, you chose to ignore entire race getting persecuted. Look at North Korea, Hongkong, Kumer rouge, Mao's murder. Tibet, Urgur. Why don't you write something about their plight. That is FAKE justice from the left and it is poisoning kids at school. I tell my kids to follow the US constitution and be appreciative and grateful to be born in this country. It is not perfect but you wont find anything better on this planet.

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