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To the Chinese American Community: 

My name is Eileen Huang, and I am a junior at Yale University studying English. I was asked to write a reflection, maybe even a poem, on Chinese American history after watching Asian Americans, the new documentary on PBS. However, I find it hard to write poems at a time like this. I refuse to focus on our history, our stories, and our people without acknowledging the challenges, pain, and trauma experienced by marginalized people—ourselves included—even today. In light of protests in Minnesota, which were sparked by the murder of George Floyd at the hands of racist White and Asian police officers, I specifically want to address the rampant anti-Blackness in the Asian American community that, if unchecked, can bring violence to us all. 

We Asian Americans have long perpetuated anti-Black statements and stereotypes. I grew up hearing relatives, family friends, and even my parents make subtle, even explicitly racist comments about the Black community: They grow up in bad neighborhoods. They cause so much crime. I would rather you not be friends with Black people. I would rather you not be involved in Black activism. 

The message was clear: We are the model minority—doctors, lawyers, quiet and obedient overachievers. We have little to do with other people of color; we will even side with White Americans to degrade them. The Asian Americans around me, myself included, were reluctant—and sometimes even refused—to participate in conversations on the violent racism faced by Black Americans—even when they were hunted by White supremacists, even when they were mercilessly shot in their own neighborhoods, even when they were murdered in broad daylight, even when their children were slaughtered for carrying toy guns or stealing gum, even when their grieving mothers appeared on television, begging and crying for justice. Even when anti-Blackness is so closely aligned to our own oppression under structural racism. 

We Asian Americans like to think of ourselves as exempt from racism. After all, many of us live in affluent neighborhoods, send our children to selective universities, and work comfortable, professional jobs. As the poet Cathy Park Hong writes, we believe that we are “next in line … to disappear,” to gain the privileges that White people have, to be freed from all the burdens that come with existing in a body of color. 

However, our survival in this country has always been conditional. When Chinese laborers came in the 1800s, they were lynched and barred from political and social participation by the Chinese Exclusion Act—the only federal law in American history to explicitly target a racial group. When early Asian immigrants, such as Bhagat Singh Thind, attempted to apply for citizenship, all Asian Americans were denied the right to legal personhood—which was only granted to “free white persons“—until 1965. When Pearl Harbor was bombed, Japanese Americans were rounded up, tortured, and detained in concentration camps. When the Cold War reached its peak, Chinese Americans suspected of being Communists were terrorized by federal agents. Families lost their jobs, businesses, and livelihoods. When COVID-19 hit the US, Asian Americans were assaulted, spat on, and harassed. We were accused of being “virus carriers”; I was recently called a “bat-eater.” We are made to feel like we have excelled in this country until we are reminded that we cannot get too comfortable—that we will never truly belong. 

Here’s a story of not belonging: On June 19, 1982, as Detroit’s auto industry was deteriorating from Japanese competition, Vincent Chin, a 27-year-old Chinese American, entered a bar to celebrate his upcoming wedding. Ronald Ebens, a laid-off White autoworker, and his stepson, Michael Nitz, were there as well. They followed Chin as he left the bar and cornered him in a McDonald’s parking lot, where they proceeded to bludgeon him with a metal baseball bat until his head cracked open. “It’s because of you motherf––ers that we are out of work,” they had said to Chin. Later, as news of the murder got out, Chinese Americans were outraged, calling for Ebens and Nitz’s conviction. Chin’s killers were only charged for second-degree murder, receiving only charges of $3,000—and no jail time. “These weren’t the kind of men you send to jail,” County Judge Charles Kaufman said. Then who is? 

Watching Asian Americans, I was haunted by the video clips of Chin’s mother, Lily. She is a small Chinese woman who looks like my grandmother, or my mother, or an aunt. Her face crumples in front of the cameras; she pleads and cries, in a voice almost animal-like, “I want justice for my son.” Yet, in all of Lily’s footage, she is surrounded by Black civil rights activists, such as Jesse Jackson. They guard her from news reporters that try to film her grief. Later, they march in the streets with Chinese American activists, holding signs calling for an end to racist violence. 

Though we cannot compare the challenges faced by Asian Americans to the far more violent atrocities suffered by Black Americans, we owe everything to them. It is because of the work of Black Americans—who spearheaded the civil rights movement—that Asian Americans are no longer called “Orientals” or “Chinamen.” It is because of Black Americans, who called for an end to racist housing policies, that we are even allowed to live in the same neighborhoods as White people. It is because of Black Americans, who pushed back against racist naturalization laws, that Asian Americans have gained official citizenship and are officially recognized under the law. It is because of Black activism that stories like Vincent Chin’s are even remembered. We did not gain the freedom to become comfortable “model minorities” by virtue of being better or hard-working, but from years of struggle and support from other marginalized communities. 

On May 25, 2020, George Floyd, a Black man, was accused of using a counterfeit 20-dollar bill at a deli in Minneapolis. In response, Derek Chauvin, a White police officer, tackled Floyd and knelt on his neck for seven minutes. In videos that will later circulate online, for three minutes, in a pool of his own blood, Floyd is seen pleading for his life, stating that he can no longer breathe. Instead, Chauvin continues to kneel. And kneel. Meanwhile, in the background, Tou Thao, an Asian American police officer, is seen standing by the murder, merely watching. And watching. And saying nothing as Floyd slowly stops struggling. 

I see this same kind of silence from Asian Americans around me. I am especially disappointed in the Chinese American community, whose silence on the murder of Black Americans has been deafening. While so many activists of color are banding together to support protesters in Minneapolis, so many Chinese Americans have chosen to “stay out” of this disobedience. The same Chinese Americans who spoke out so vocally on anti-Asian racism from COVID-19 are suspiciously quiet when it comes to Floyd’s murder (as well as Ahmaud Arbery, Breonna Taylor, Tamir Rice, Sandra Bland, Trayvon Martin, Michael Brown, Freddie Gray and countless other Black Americans who were killed merely for existing). I do not see us sharing sympathy for Black mothers who appear on television, begging, like Lily Chin, to see justice for their sons. I do not see us marching with Black protesters. I do not see us donating to Black-led organizations. 

I do not see our outrage as White murderers, such as Vincent Chin’s killers, receive no jail time for killing innocent Black Americans. I do not see us extending any solidarity toward the Black protesters who have been sprayed with tear gas and rubber bullets—only a couple weeks after White COVID-19 “protesters,” armed with AR-15s, were barely even touched by policemen. Instead, I see us calling them “thugs,” “rioters,” “looters”—the same epithets that White Americans once called us. I see us, such as members of my own family, merely laughing off President Trump’s tweet about sending the National Guard to Minnesota, as if it were a joke and not a deadly threat.  

I imagine where we would be if Black Americans did not participate in Asian American activism. We would still be called Orientals. We would live in even more segregated neighborhoods and attend even more segregated schools. We would not be allowed to attend these elite colleges, advance in our comfortable careers. We would be illegal aliens. We—and everyone else—would not remember stories like Vincent Chin’s. 

I urge all Chinese Americans to watch media such as Asian Americans, to seriously reflect not only on our own history, but also on our shared history with other minorities—how our liberation is intertwined with liberation for Black Americans, Native Americans, Latinx Americans, and more. We are not exempt from history. What has happened to George Floyd has happened to Chinese miners in the 1800s and Vincent Chin, and will continue to happen to us and all minorities unless we let go of our silence, which has never protected us, and never will. 

Our history is not only a lineage of obedient doctors, lawyers, and engineers. It is also a history of disrupters, activists, fighters, and, above all, survivors. I think often of Yuri Kochiyama, a Japanese American survivor of internment camps who later became a prominent civil rights activist, and who developed close relationships with Black activists, such as Malcolm X. “We are all part of one another,” she once said.

I urge you all to donate to the activist organizations listed below. I refuse to call for the racial justice of our own community at the expense of others. Justice that degrades or subordinates other minorities is not justice at all. At a time when many privileged minorities are siding with White supremacy—which has terrorized all of our communities for centuries—I want to ask: Whose side are you on?

 

Eileen Huang studies English at Yale University. You can find her on Twitter @bobacommie and Instagram @eileenxhuang

 

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All of those who have signed below have pledged to address/end anti-Blackness in our Asian American communities by committing to the following actions:


  • Donating to Black-led organizations and Black Lives Matter activists in MN

  • Protesting (either in person or on social media) against White supremacy and anti-Blackness

  • Engaging in uncomfortable/difficult conversations with Asian Americans/non-Black people on anti-Blackness in our own communities

  • Committing to educating yourself on anti-racist theories, actions, and histories that can help dismantle White supremacy


Click the following link of Google Form to sign your name if you are with us: [name, opt. affiliation]

   https://bit.ly/3djTtuE

Eileen Huang, Yale University

Isabelle Rhee, Yale University

Biman Xie, Yale University

Saket Malholtra, Yale University

Lauren Lee, Yale University

Adrian Kyle Venzon, Yale University

Michael Chen, Yale University

Lillian Hua, Yale University

Dora Guo, Yale University

Kevin Quach, Yale University

Pia Gorme, Yale University

Alex Chen, Yale University

Emily Xu, Yale University

Avik Sarkar, Yale University

Evelyn Huilin Wu, Yale University

Angelreana Choi, Yale University

Cindy Kuang, Yale University

Karina Xie, Yale University

Tulsi Patel, Yale University

Kayley Estoesta, Yale University

Renee Chen, Wellesley College

Sara Thakur, Yale University

Eui Young Kim, Yale University

FUNDS AND COMMUNITY EFFORTS TO DONATE TO:

Compiled by the Asian American Students Alliance at Yale. 

FAMILY FUNDS:

I Run With Maud

George Floyd Memorial Fund

BAIL FUNDS:

Atlanta Solidarity Fund

Brooklyn Bail Fund

Chicago Community Bond Fund

Columbus Freedom Fund

Los Angeles - People’s City Council Freedom Fund

Louisville Community Bail Fund

Philadelphia Community Bail Fund

People’s Breakfast Oakland

Richmond Community Bail Fund

COLLECTIVES, MUTUAL AID FUNDS, AND OTHER GRASSROOTS ORGANIZATIONS:

Black Lives Matter

Black Visions Collective

Black Owned Business GoFundMe Thread

Lake Street Council

Minnesota Youth Collective

North Star Health Collective

Reclaim the Block

Women for Political Change Front Lines Fund and Mutual Aid Fund

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JS

I fully agree with you that we should support the African American community and try to end racism. But please... what you have seen does not represent the vast majority of Asian Americans. I have many Asian American friends, and I assure you that they do not harbor racist sentiments against African Americans. At all. By generalizing what you've seen towards an entire community, you are being racist towards your own race (and yes, that is an actual thing). And also let me remind you that we are Asian Americans. Key word: Americans. We, along with all other Americans, DO belong in this country. Those who believe otherwise need to check their facts. And yes, we owe a lot to African American activists for bringing us the rights we have now. But "everything" is perhaps an overstatement. Being a student at Yale you should know that getting into Yale is no bed of roses. Is your own hard work not involved? Give yourself a bit more credit.
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Shannon

Eileen, thank you for your thoughtful essay. I agree that given what is happening, now is not the best time to be focusing on the sufferings and prejudice faced by the Asian American community. But I would also like to offer some context to your rather sweeping accusation of racism among the Asian American communities, especially with regard to the older generation. For generations Asian Americans have been caught in the crossfire of racial conflict between black and white Americans. When Rodney King was brutally assaulted by 4 white police officers in 1992, a riot quickly ensued. While national guards were deployed to guard places like Beverly Hills, Koreantown was blockaded off together with the poor neighborhoods and left to burn. When refugees from Asia came to the US, they were placed into the poorest neighborhoods with the highest crime rates. They were left to fend for themselves. How can they not be wary? How can they not be fearful? As immigrants Asian Americans carry with them historical and cultural baggages from their home country. Many Chinese Americans, for example, are shocked by the stark resemblance between the Cultural Revolution and the echo chambers that exist within certain extreme groups in America. The race issues faced by Asian Americans are a lot more nuanced than your simplistic portrayal of the Asian American community. I suggest you read the essay by Elaine H Kim, "Home is where the Han is: a Korean American perspective on the Los Angeles upheavals." That would be a good start.
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Amy

I'm sorry that your parents made subtle, even explicitly racist comments about the Black community. However, I'm afraid you are making the same mistake as your parents, by generalizing this racist behavior onto the whole Asian American community. Your parents should apologize to the African American community for their racist comments. And you, should apologize to the Asian American community by indicating that all Asian Americans are as racists as your parents.
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Annie Zheng

While I recognize the importance of intersectionality and unity among POC regarding the rampant race-related crimes being committed today, it is incredibly counterproductive to detract from the efforts of countless community activists and organizers from the Chinese-American community in order to support the Black Lives Matter movement. Advocacy is never a zero-sum game, and lecturing our community’s elders about changing their values is not a productive way to increase support and dialogue. Instead, it is important to recognize the dual struggles that Asian-Americans face, with not just heapings of racism from white people and other POC, but also accusations of privilege from both sides. The Asian-American struggle is a unique one, and we must keep in mind that no one else has our interests at heart. It is critical to prevent outside forces from co-opting our fight for justice, especially those who are deeply racist against us regardless of their claims of “not being able to be racist.” Marginalized communities should stand together against racial violence, and this letter does nothing but rip our communities further apart. The privileged and myopic authors of this letter do not speak for our community; we must never allow these individuals to victimize our entire community just to placate the social justice mob that they are trying their hardest to appease. We must stand up for ourselves.
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Ping Zheng

Eileen, you should be shamed on your racist parents, friends and relatives! However, please do not generalize your small circle of racists to all Asian community! You may need to go out of your racist circle to find these hard working struggled Asian immigrants as they are striving to put food on the table and support their children to study hard to be successful! Your racist circle might be elite and except from these hard working Asian American. Dividing only fuel hates!
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KC in NYC

When the gun carrying white people protested against Covid19 quarantine, I, like you, did not like them. I was hoping they would be arrested for endangering the public. But they did NOT break any laws, right? Therefore I could not call them thugs. I called them stupid. When looting started during the recent events, exactly why can’t we call them thugs and looters?
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Heartbroken

Hi Eileen, you mean well, but the words truly hurt someone like myself or the majority ppl in the Asian community who are not racist. When you use your family to represent the whole Asian community, I found it’s hard to believe the rest of what you wants to deliver. And the unfair judgment from a highly educated Asian American makes me wonder what our community did wrong, and made you anti your own community this much. If you have time, please step out of your circle and explore what is the real Asian community and stop the stereotype judgement.
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Jin

We all have racial bias. Whether we choose to acknowledge it as wrong and unjust and make the effort to be actively anti-racist is the difference. If your immediate reaction is to say "not me," I strongly urge you to reflect and ask yourself why. I am able to admit my attitude towards others is unfair at times and part of a systemic problem. Are you? Thank you for the letter. It resonated strongly with me and speaks to the struggle I am facing with my parents in this moment as well.
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Erica Weng

I'm a second-generation Asian American; my parents were of the immigrant generation. My family does not subscribe to racial stereotyping; my parents and I choose to judge each person by the quality of their individual character, regardless of their ethnicity or social standing. When I try to look at this issue from the perspective of one who grew up in a racist family or a racist Asian American community, I understand how easy it is to agree wholeheartedly with Eileen's letter, to view many comments in this thread as selfishly defensive, and to feel anger towards the Asian American community as a group. But when I look at this issue from the perspective of one who grew up without experiencing much racism in the immigrant generation, and from the perspective of one of the immigrant generation -- and I acknowledge that this is the perspective I am more familiar with -- I see how easy it is to feel hurt, unappreciated, and wrongly accused. The black community has allowed us to live in a changed and better world; their lives and deaths, their civil rights activism has helped the Asian American community in a way we will never fully appreciate or understand. We owe everything to them. Our parents, the immigrant generation, came to America with little more than cents in their pockets; they gave everything for us, their children, and their sacrifice is something we will never fully appreciate or understand. We owe everything to them. Neither of these are debts that can be repaid so easily. Let us not look down on our Asian heritage with contempt. It's not a heritage merely of obedient doctors and lawyers as you describe it, but rather one of hard work, perseverance, and enduring love for the next generation. It's a heritage of hope in a better future. Our parents' sacrifices have allowed us to study in schools like Yale. They have allowed us the freedom from want and the resulting leisure to stand up for what we believe in -- yes, even to stand up for the oppressed and discriminated-against. Some Asian parents have racist attitudes, which threaten to poison our comprehension of the precious and good parts of our Asian heritage. Don't let it. Their racism does not negate their love which they poured out for us. Just as it is wrong to identify entire communities with unilateral labels, it's wrong to identify individuals with such labels. All humans are broken, crippled individuals. Let us cherish the good, and gently correct the bad; let us help our parents and help each other reorient more wholly towards what is good. That said, since our parents have painstakingly laid the groundwork below our feet so we may stand up for what we believe in, we must not let it go to waste. We need more than spark unrest and civil disobedience -- we need "more active participation in all social and political ranks" as Goose the Shepherd commented above. We ourselves need to participate in the system we denounce -- to change things for the better, not to destroy them. I'm not advocating that we be "obedient" lawyers, doctors, and engineers, blindly obeying the constructs history and society have set in place. Rather, I believe we must be active members of our community, we must ask ourselves whether our actions and behavior reflect the ideals we truly believe in, we must have courage to voice our beliefs out loud. Our Asian-American heritage comes into play even here. Hard work, perseverance, and love are most necessary in standing up for the oppressed. Standing on the side of justice does not have to be radical or dissenting -- it does not require being a "disrupter, activist, fighter, or survivor," in the face-value definitions of those terms. Arguably, we can cause greater change by performing our daily civil duties. Voting, engaging in conversation with our peers, making friends outside our comfort zones. Yes; by getting to know a fellow person of color; by spending time with someone different than us; by understanding that person as an individual, yet also as a member of a people with a rich heritage, just as we each have a multifaceted Asian American heritage. Love and solidarity is as simple as personal relationships. And personal relationships go so much deeper and last so much longer than radical unrest and disobedience. We should not do these things because we owe anyone anything. We should do them because it is THE RIGHT THING to do, because injustice is WRONG. Keeping score, thinking in terms of what we owe and is owed to us -- only generates resentment. "_Whose_ side are you on?" is not the right question to be asking, it does not have the right attitude. Rather than picking sides between people, we must pick sides between injustice and justice, love and hate. We must ask ourselves what we truly believe in, and if our actions reflect that. We must ask ourselves _what_ do we stand for -- "_What_ side are you on?" Erica W. MIT c/o 2020
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Echo

Please don’t represent all Asians! I appreciate any hard working people, regardless of their races. I worked in a top diversified company, and have many African Americans good friends. I support the protest for GF, but I don't support any looting. For your letter, I agree your point of anti - racism. But I don't agree the part saying that Asian has the so called 'previlige'. You grew up in a nice neighborhood, went to good schools, you don't need to pay your tuition by yourself, that's because the hard work of your parents, or even your grandparents. Do you know how hard the life for a first generation immigrant? Do you know how many Asian parents are willing to secrified their own needs for their children? This is not previlige at all! If we really want to find any previlige, the only previlige for Asian is their tradition of hard working and never giving up in difficult situation. I shared your letter to my 14 year old, and my 12 year old, both of them disagree the previlige part from your letter. Although they are younger than you, they know the hard life of Asians, they know how to appreciate their family's hard work and their ancestors good old tradition.

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