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To the Chinese American Community: 

My name is Eileen Huang, and I am a junior at Yale University studying English. I was asked to write a reflection, maybe even a poem, on Chinese American history after watching Asian Americans, the new documentary on PBS. However, I find it hard to write poems at a time like this. I refuse to focus on our history, our stories, and our people without acknowledging the challenges, pain, and trauma experienced by marginalized people—ourselves included—even today. In light of protests in Minnesota, which were sparked by the murder of George Floyd at the hands of racist White and Asian police officers, I specifically want to address the rampant anti-Blackness in the Asian American community that, if unchecked, can bring violence to us all. 

We Asian Americans have long perpetuated anti-Black statements and stereotypes. I grew up hearing relatives, family friends, and even my parents make subtle, even explicitly racist comments about the Black community: They grow up in bad neighborhoods. They cause so much crime. I would rather you not be friends with Black people. I would rather you not be involved in Black activism. 

The message was clear: We are the model minority—doctors, lawyers, quiet and obedient overachievers. We have little to do with other people of color; we will even side with White Americans to degrade them. The Asian Americans around me, myself included, were reluctant—and sometimes even refused—to participate in conversations on the violent racism faced by Black Americans—even when they were hunted by White supremacists, even when they were mercilessly shot in their own neighborhoods, even when they were murdered in broad daylight, even when their children were slaughtered for carrying toy guns or stealing gum, even when their grieving mothers appeared on television, begging and crying for justice. Even when anti-Blackness is so closely aligned to our own oppression under structural racism. 

We Asian Americans like to think of ourselves as exempt from racism. After all, many of us live in affluent neighborhoods, send our children to selective universities, and work comfortable, professional jobs. As the poet Cathy Park Hong writes, we believe that we are “next in line … to disappear,” to gain the privileges that White people have, to be freed from all the burdens that come with existing in a body of color. 

However, our survival in this country has always been conditional. When Chinese laborers came in the 1800s, they were lynched and barred from political and social participation by the Chinese Exclusion Act—the only federal law in American history to explicitly target a racial group. When early Asian immigrants, such as Bhagat Singh Thind, attempted to apply for citizenship, all Asian Americans were denied the right to legal personhood—which was only granted to “free white persons“—until 1965. When Pearl Harbor was bombed, Japanese Americans were rounded up, tortured, and detained in concentration camps. When the Cold War reached its peak, Chinese Americans suspected of being Communists were terrorized by federal agents. Families lost their jobs, businesses, and livelihoods. When COVID-19 hit the US, Asian Americans were assaulted, spat on, and harassed. We were accused of being “virus carriers”; I was recently called a “bat-eater.” We are made to feel like we have excelled in this country until we are reminded that we cannot get too comfortable—that we will never truly belong. 

Here’s a story of not belonging: On June 19, 1982, as Detroit’s auto industry was deteriorating from Japanese competition, Vincent Chin, a 27-year-old Chinese American, entered a bar to celebrate his upcoming wedding. Ronald Ebens, a laid-off White autoworker, and his stepson, Michael Nitz, were there as well. They followed Chin as he left the bar and cornered him in a McDonald’s parking lot, where they proceeded to bludgeon him with a metal baseball bat until his head cracked open. “It’s because of you motherf––ers that we are out of work,” they had said to Chin. Later, as news of the murder got out, Chinese Americans were outraged, calling for Ebens and Nitz’s conviction. Chin’s killers were only charged for second-degree murder, receiving only charges of $3,000—and no jail time. “These weren’t the kind of men you send to jail,” County Judge Charles Kaufman said. Then who is? 

Watching Asian Americans, I was haunted by the video clips of Chin’s mother, Lily. She is a small Chinese woman who looks like my grandmother, or my mother, or an aunt. Her face crumples in front of the cameras; she pleads and cries, in a voice almost animal-like, “I want justice for my son.” Yet, in all of Lily’s footage, she is surrounded by Black civil rights activists, such as Jesse Jackson. They guard her from news reporters that try to film her grief. Later, they march in the streets with Chinese American activists, holding signs calling for an end to racist violence. 

Though we cannot compare the challenges faced by Asian Americans to the far more violent atrocities suffered by Black Americans, we owe everything to them. It is because of the work of Black Americans—who spearheaded the civil rights movement—that Asian Americans are no longer called “Orientals” or “Chinamen.” It is because of Black Americans, who called for an end to racist housing policies, that we are even allowed to live in the same neighborhoods as White people. It is because of Black Americans, who pushed back against racist naturalization laws, that Asian Americans have gained official citizenship and are officially recognized under the law. It is because of Black activism that stories like Vincent Chin’s are even remembered. We did not gain the freedom to become comfortable “model minorities” by virtue of being better or hard-working, but from years of struggle and support from other marginalized communities. 

On May 25, 2020, George Floyd, a Black man, was accused of using a counterfeit 20-dollar bill at a deli in Minneapolis. In response, Derek Chauvin, a White police officer, tackled Floyd and knelt on his neck for seven minutes. In videos that will later circulate online, for three minutes, in a pool of his own blood, Floyd is seen pleading for his life, stating that he can no longer breathe. Instead, Chauvin continues to kneel. And kneel. Meanwhile, in the background, Tou Thao, an Asian American police officer, is seen standing by the murder, merely watching. And watching. And saying nothing as Floyd slowly stops struggling. 

I see this same kind of silence from Asian Americans around me. I am especially disappointed in the Chinese American community, whose silence on the murder of Black Americans has been deafening. While so many activists of color are banding together to support protesters in Minneapolis, so many Chinese Americans have chosen to “stay out” of this disobedience. The same Chinese Americans who spoke out so vocally on anti-Asian racism from COVID-19 are suspiciously quiet when it comes to Floyd’s murder (as well as Ahmaud Arbery, Breonna Taylor, Tamir Rice, Sandra Bland, Trayvon Martin, Michael Brown, Freddie Gray and countless other Black Americans who were killed merely for existing). I do not see us sharing sympathy for Black mothers who appear on television, begging, like Lily Chin, to see justice for their sons. I do not see us marching with Black protesters. I do not see us donating to Black-led organizations. 

I do not see our outrage as White murderers, such as Vincent Chin’s killers, receive no jail time for killing innocent Black Americans. I do not see us extending any solidarity toward the Black protesters who have been sprayed with tear gas and rubber bullets—only a couple weeks after White COVID-19 “protesters,” armed with AR-15s, were barely even touched by policemen. Instead, I see us calling them “thugs,” “rioters,” “looters”—the same epithets that White Americans once called us. I see us, such as members of my own family, merely laughing off President Trump’s tweet about sending the National Guard to Minnesota, as if it were a joke and not a deadly threat.  

I imagine where we would be if Black Americans did not participate in Asian American activism. We would still be called Orientals. We would live in even more segregated neighborhoods and attend even more segregated schools. We would not be allowed to attend these elite colleges, advance in our comfortable careers. We would be illegal aliens. We—and everyone else—would not remember stories like Vincent Chin’s. 

I urge all Chinese Americans to watch media such as Asian Americans, to seriously reflect not only on our own history, but also on our shared history with other minorities—how our liberation is intertwined with liberation for Black Americans, Native Americans, Latinx Americans, and more. We are not exempt from history. What has happened to George Floyd has happened to Chinese miners in the 1800s and Vincent Chin, and will continue to happen to us and all minorities unless we let go of our silence, which has never protected us, and never will. 

Our history is not only a lineage of obedient doctors, lawyers, and engineers. It is also a history of disrupters, activists, fighters, and, above all, survivors. I think often of Yuri Kochiyama, a Japanese American survivor of internment camps who later became a prominent civil rights activist, and who developed close relationships with Black activists, such as Malcolm X. “We are all part of one another,” she once said.

I urge you all to donate to the activist organizations listed below. I refuse to call for the racial justice of our own community at the expense of others. Justice that degrades or subordinates other minorities is not justice at all. At a time when many privileged minorities are siding with White supremacy—which has terrorized all of our communities for centuries—I want to ask: Whose side are you on?

 

Eileen Huang studies English at Yale University. You can find her on Twitter @bobacommie and Instagram @eileenxhuang

 

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All of those who have signed below have pledged to address/end anti-Blackness in our Asian American communities by committing to the following actions:


  • Donating to Black-led organizations and Black Lives Matter activists in MN

  • Protesting (either in person or on social media) against White supremacy and anti-Blackness

  • Engaging in uncomfortable/difficult conversations with Asian Americans/non-Black people on anti-Blackness in our own communities

  • Committing to educating yourself on anti-racist theories, actions, and histories that can help dismantle White supremacy


Click the following link of Google Form to sign your name if you are with us: [name, opt. affiliation]

   https://bit.ly/3djTtuE

Eileen Huang, Yale University

Isabelle Rhee, Yale University

Biman Xie, Yale University

Saket Malholtra, Yale University

Lauren Lee, Yale University

Adrian Kyle Venzon, Yale University

Michael Chen, Yale University

Lillian Hua, Yale University

Dora Guo, Yale University

Kevin Quach, Yale University

Pia Gorme, Yale University

Alex Chen, Yale University

Emily Xu, Yale University

Avik Sarkar, Yale University

Evelyn Huilin Wu, Yale University

Angelreana Choi, Yale University

Cindy Kuang, Yale University

Karina Xie, Yale University

Tulsi Patel, Yale University

Kayley Estoesta, Yale University

Renee Chen, Wellesley College

Sara Thakur, Yale University

Eui Young Kim, Yale University

FUNDS AND COMMUNITY EFFORTS TO DONATE TO:

Compiled by the Asian American Students Alliance at Yale. 

FAMILY FUNDS:

I Run With Maud

George Floyd Memorial Fund

BAIL FUNDS:

Atlanta Solidarity Fund

Brooklyn Bail Fund

Chicago Community Bond Fund

Columbus Freedom Fund

Los Angeles - People’s City Council Freedom Fund

Louisville Community Bail Fund

Philadelphia Community Bail Fund

People’s Breakfast Oakland

Richmond Community Bail Fund

COLLECTIVES, MUTUAL AID FUNDS, AND OTHER GRASSROOTS ORGANIZATIONS:

Black Lives Matter

Black Visions Collective

Black Owned Business GoFundMe Thread

Lake Street Council

Minnesota Youth Collective

North Star Health Collective

Reclaim the Block

Women for Political Change Front Lines Fund and Mutual Aid Fund

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NanjingOG

This should be renamed as "The Boba Liberal's Manifesto"
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Pamela

You a young lady is still a follower of BLM movement, hope you rise up as a new leader & with your own political message “Chinese Livies Matter Too” in near future.
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A mom

I am surprised at the conclusion you reached after watching the documentary “Asian Americans”. Respect and status in society never comes with outside world, is always gained through one’s hard work. Every race everyone should look within first before criticizing others.
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CC

The Asian "privilege" (i.e. no extremely negative systemic bias against Asians) came from many other Asians who came before us, got taken advantage of, but didn't/couldn't/didn't want to fight back, somehow moved on with life and continued to work hard to achieve their dreams. It is not a "privilege". It is a social credit from the earlier generations. Use it well, and never mistake this as a privilege. The only privileged group is the majority group. PS - thanks for raising a voice. First step to being political active. But like many other posts said, voice in a responsible way that doesn't dive the community. There is a long road ahead of us.
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NOT LEFT or RIGHT JUST HUMAN

To Niki S. - 1. None of these students who wrote the essay are YOUR CHILD. Don’t talk down to them. You try to demean their views because of their age. I don’t think history is on your side. 2. You might hold the opinion that what the students wrote is not filial, but that doesn’t mean it’s not accurate. Please don’t confuse the two. And such a ridiculous accusation to say that now no one will marry her because they can’t trust her. IF YOU REALLY FELT THIS IS SOMETHING THAT EILEEN SHOULD BE WORRIED ABOUT, it says a lot about your small-minded views of the world in 2020! 3. You’re right about more White Americans being killed by police than Black Americans IN TOTAL. But you neglect to look at the percentage of Black Americans in this country relative to the total population: 12.6%. So looking at the total numbers (you don’t have to take my word for it...DO YOUR RESEARCH AS YOU SUGGESTED), Black Americans are 6x more likely to be killed by police in their lifetime than White Americans. 4. Stop trying to accuse people of being “brainwashed” by the left-liberal-universities/politics. If so, what side are you on? This isn’t left or right politics, this is HUMAN RIGHTS. Black Lives Matter IS SUPPOSE TO SHOW that not just African-AMERICANS’ lives matter, but that the lives of ALL BLACK PEOPLE MATTER. People all around the world know this. That is why we are seeing BLM protests around the world in support of America. Maybe you meant well in your comments above, but I think your response shows the mentality of many Chinese American parents today and highlights the great divide on why you refuse to see what many of your children have been trying to tell you for years.
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Su Chen

EXACTLY BLM. There’s a lot of viruses and disease out there yet right now most of us are focused on Coronavirus. Are we as Asian Americans only suppose to support BLM once we have extinguished all racism against ourselves? That’s just not going to happen. We focus so much on the challenges of our immigrant experience in the US, yes, it’s true. But there are people like the Mayor of Atlanta who are just 5 generations from descendants of slaves. What about the challenges of their experience? Why are we speaking out against the injustices they face? John Rawls said once: “The fairest rules are those to which everyone would agree if they did not know how much power they would have.” WOULD YOU TRADE PLACES NOW WITH A BLACK AMERICAN?
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RIDICULIST

To May...yep. Pretty much HIGHER INCOME MEANS MORE “PRIVILEGES” in America today. Privileges like higher life expectancy (check!), more likely to be able to make bail if you’re ever arrested (check!), more able to afford your own lawyer and not a pro-bono lawyer if you have to go to court to face charges (check!), more likely to have access to WiFi and a computer / phone line (check!) to meet your legal requirements if you are arrested and put on probation, better able to afford a home and not be homeless!!! Plus, more optional leisure time (check!), better educational outcomes for your children, higher pensions in retirement... Do you need more examples?
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a chinese//american student

First of all, I would like to say: BRAVO, EILEEN for writing this! This is an exceptionally well written letter. I did not know many of the facts that you shared, and I really appreciate you taking the time to write this. I stand by your opinion, and wholeheartedly respect and admire you. To the people that are bringing down Eileen, saying she is a “traitor”, saying to her to stop generalizing Asian Americans: Let me clarify a few things for you. 1) EILEEN DOES NOT KNOW YOU. She does not know of your experience. She is not making an attack towards you personally. So to people that are saying, “I haven’t done anything! Why are you saying that Asian Americans are doing this?”, please understand that she is not an all-mighty God, who sees all. She is simply sharing her opinion based on what she has read. 2) Do some research, and learn that us Asian Americans HAVE discriminated against black people/African Americans. This much cannot be changed. No, you might not be racist, but that doesn't mean that we as Asian Americans are perfect human beings that are faultless. 3) Just because this is not going on in your community DOES NOT mean that it isn't going on somewhere else. Think about the George Floyd incident, and the Asian officer, Tou Thao. He stood by and watched as George Floyd died, as George Floyd choked out his last words. Think of that experience before you say that these incidents don’t happen, that Asian Americans are never racist. 4) The term "we Asian Americans" doesn't point to you specifically. She is making note of the fact that SHE HERSELF is Asian American. Would you read this and really take it into consideration if a non Asian-American wrote it? No! It would be like a white person saying that the n-word is okay to use. 5) I noticed a comment saying, "Learn to be responsible". What the heck? Where in her letter does it show that she is "not responsible"? Please provide some proof before you put someone down. 6) She is not a traitor to Asian Americans. She is simply pointing out her own views on this. Personally, I believe she is extremely brave for writing this. She knows that she will receive backlash from people saying that she is a traitor, that she is a "banana". Yet she writes it anyway. I give props to her for doing this. 7) Just because we are a minority ourselves, that DOES NOT give us a free pass to do racist things. We might be discriminated against. But let’s not stoop to others’ levels. To those of you who think, “I am a minority myself! I have experienced racism!”, you probably do not know the EXTENT that black people have. Let me share with you some FACTS, because you seem to ignore the facts that she puts in her letter. First: Black people, during slavery, were treated as ANIMALS. Read it again. ANIMALS. Not like pets, who are pampered. Like LITERAL ANIMALS. Their suffering went unheard. Their cries of help reached deaf ears. They were not educated, they did not know how to reach freedom. They were whipped to death, ripped to shreds by dogs, tortured for simply trying to write a letter, killed just for knowing how to read. They were separated from their children, forced to breed by their masters. Read the book Nightjohn by Gary Paulsen. It’s very short but very, very educational. Second: You might think, “Well, Asian Americans were treated badly too, yet we have gone so far!” Let’s look into some history. During slavery, black people were not educated AT ALL. They did not know how to read, how to write. Many of the African American/black people living in the US now are their descendants. Black people have started from ROCK BOTTOM and clawed their way to the top, giving us a black president. They have gone through HELL to reach where they are now. And slavery wasn’t that long ago! After slavery ended, there were MOUNTAINS of segregation, Jim Crow laws. Please do some research on them, and then think to yourself, can you tell a black person that their troubles are the same as yours? No. Third: Here’s the deal. Asian Americans have gained a good reputation because the ones that came here from China, Japan, Korea, Vietnam, India, Burma, Laos, etc. were educated. They got here by education. The black people were brought here against their will, turned into mindless slaves. They did not get here by education, they got here because of supremacists who decided that just because of skin colour, they would be tortured for hundreds of years. They got to where they are now by sheer hard work and willpower. Think Barack and Michelle Obama. They got to where they are because their parents put education first. However, as I’ve said before, many black people did not have the same opportunities of education, and that is why they have not gone as far as Asian Americans have AS A WHOLE. 8) Eileen is a human being too. She has feelings. Do not put her down for sharing her own opinion. I notice that she is not doing that to you. Her sharing the fact that her family has been racist is very brave. Do not attack her for this, as she doesn’t have control over her family’s words. Many Asian families are racist. That is the harsh truth, and to those of you who choose to turn a blind eye to this, I will say it again. MANY ASIAN FAMILIES ARE RACIST. If you want to simply shut this part out of your mind, go ahead! Live in ignorance! Why should I care! Why should Eileen care! Why should anyone care that you are too ignorant to understand that MANY ASIAN AMERICANS REFUSE TO BELIEVE THAT THEY CAN BE RACIST TOO? This is the harsh truth. You might not be racist. Your family might not be racist. But many Asian Americans are racist. Have any one of you encountered through your community not one person who has said a racist comment? No! Honestly, please think about this from her perspective. She is not writing this as an attack to you. NOWHERE has she said that all Asian Americans are bad. She is simply trying to show us a new perspective on this point. I apologize if this was long. I greatly respect Eileen and what she wrote, and I hope that before you go hating on her, respect the fact that she took the time to write this, to hopefully educate some people, all while knowing the risk that she would be hated by Asian Americans. Do not tell her that she is ignorant, for she is opening the eyes of many. Do not tell her that she should withdraw her application from Yale, as she deserves it. Do not tell her that she is a disgrace, because she, quite simply, is NOT. If you don’t agree with her, then you don’t. Share so in a respectful manner, and acknowledge the fact that she took the time to share with you some facts.
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Mary Legault

Facts. 1. Black males do commit more crimes . In particular, George Floyd has a lengthy criminal record and most of you, Eileen Huang included, are not aware of it. 2. Police brutality is a problem 3. Politicians and activists do like to exploit the situation for political expediency
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Rich Teo

To Answer Will’s Question: Like this former Navy Captain and his wife: https://edition.cnn.com/2020/06/07/us/navy-captain-racial-slurs-facebook/index.html Or this guy pushing a 92 year old Asian man: https://youtu.be/jQTZvPpmU_E Or this guy crossing out Corona on his speech to say “Chinese” virus instead: https://www.truthorfiction.com/trump-crosses-out-corona-on-virus-prepared-remarks-writes-chinese/ Don’t blame you. We are all a product of our experiences. But if you are growing up in a “lower class” (your words) neighbourhood with mostly African American residents, chances are the people you experience racist acts from will predominantly be African American. I grew up in a very white well-to-do neighbourhood. Have been called “oriental”, asked if I eat dog, called “chink”, not invited to friends’ family events, asked if I’m really Chinese why am I so tall, told that Chinese people can’t do_fill in the blanks_, told numerous times that so-and-so in someone’s family adopted a child from China. These may seem insignificant to you, but I assure you, the racism was very much there. It was the financial “successes” that we had that protected us from experiencing some of the racism to our faces. We just saw the evidence of them behind our backs or whenever some White Americans wanted to “put us back in our place”. Except these were financially successful, educated and well-to-do people with none of the social disadvantages that African Americans experience in many of our inner-city neighbourhoods. So racism exists across races and cultures. I’m sincerely sorry for the things you and your family have had to experience, Will. They are a byproduct of the neighbourhood you lived in and not solely because of the perpetrators’ race. I know because I experienced them, too.

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